It’s been a roller-coaster of emotions today.
Firstly I burnt my hand - I was heating up some baby food for a customer, when I took it out of the microwave it was bubbling so I thought ‘let me put it on a plate so I don’t burn my fingers’
Started to walk out the kitchen and slipped on the wet floor (no signage!!!)
Causing the baby food to fall right into the palm of my hand.
I was in shock for about 20mins I couldn’t stop shaking and I just kept tearing up.
The pain was horrendous.
Then I had the best conversation with Tom about a potential flat he was viewing today.
It sounds absolutely perfect and we’ve made an offer on it.
So I’m officially moving in with my boyfriend on the 18th 😀😀😀
And then when I got home after going out after work for a couple of drinks to tell my parents the good news.
I get told my mum finally found out if she was going to be sacked or not because of an incident at work.
She got sacked!
Now I don’t know if it is going to be finically terrible for them if I move out, but at the same time I want to go and be an adult with my own flat.
Today had been weird!
I’m slightly drunkish but it was so helpful and enlightening talking to my best friend tonight about all the crap that is going on in my life and stuff about Alastair and depression.
It was nice to just kick back, relax and have a drink and talk about stuff.
It was very enlightening and I am so happy that we spoke about it because it makes me look at things in a new perspective.
It made me think and evaluate how I had been viewing things lately.
And maybe giving a new light to a situation I didn’t think I could handle.
How do people just move out, find their own place and what not.
Because at the moment I am finding in fucking difficult.
I seriously just want to start looking outside of london.
Get as far away from this horrible place as possible.
I want to live by the sea, a nicer scenery and by the looks of it a hell of a lot cheaper.
Just the trouble of getting new jobs….
I hate everything at the moment.
Days are turning into a struggle at the moment, feeling a bit lost.
The uncertainty of moving or not moving is killing me.m
I just want my own place with Tom.
I don’t even care what it looks like anymore, just somewhere that will accept me, him and Cassie is all I ask for.
I wish I earned more money,this wouldn’t be a problem if we had serious amounts of money.
Fuck it all, I’m so tired of all this.
I’m about 100% done with everything at the moment.
There is no winning so what is the point trying!
Can’t sleep, but I’m sort if glad that I can’t because look at this freaking amazing picture I took of the lightning!!!
Taken with an ipod, I’m pretty impressed with myself 😊
I want to get things off my chest but I don’t even know how to start so I just keep then bottled up.
And this is probably why I am so emotional.
Bring on the day when I don’t have to go to bed alone.
"Once upon a time there was a boy who loved a girl, and her laughter was a question he wanted to spend his whole life answering."
Notes like this shouldn’t have to be written at work.
I feel sick to my stomach.
I hope the fucker enjoys spending my money.